Well, having our 2nd baby has encouraged me to get fit.
When I look back and think about the history of my weight gain, I remember being around 120-125 lbs throughout college. I took dance classes and was active in performing at the church I was involved in.
I even told myself that I would kill myself if I let myself reach 130 lbs. This was the young me speaking. Not trying to be insensitive or comparing myself to others. It was just a personal thing I thought to myself. And guess what? When I started dating my now husband, we ate like there was no tomorrow. We tried every restaurant along Colorado blvd in Pasadena. Not only did it make a big dent in our wallets but it made us to slowly gain weight.
During the whole time my now husband and I were dating, I probably checked my weight on the scale once or twice. The reason for that is when I finally got on the scale one day, it said 145 or 150 already. I was too disappointed to even care at that point.
We were engaged for a while and during the last year prior to our wedding date, I suffered from an anxiety disorder. Unlike any other bride to be that ate properly and worked out to look beautiful on their wedding day, I had my other issues to handle.
I still continued to do the same eating pattern I was accustomed to with no attempt to exercise at all. I still refused to go on the scale and just made myself believe I was doing okay. It’s not like me fitting to a size small when I was 124 lbs and then me having to wear an XL or 1x wasn’t a good enough clue to tell me I’m not doing okay.
I wanted to get pregnant as soon as we got married, and we did. We were pregnant by the 2nd month of being married. I finally had to go on the scale to determine where I’m at. And my shocker, I was 170 lbs. In 10 years, I gained a total of 46 lbs. Most of it I gained on the last 2 years. At the end of my first pregnancy I was at 200 lbs. Which wasn’t too bad I thought, since I’ve heard of other moms gaining 50 lbs during their pregnancy. But the truth was, I was still overweight. And sadly, according to health calculators, I’m OBESE!
I finally dropped back to 170 in about a year 1/2 after having our firstborn. Then recently, I dropped another 20 lbs. How? I’m not sure. Probably by chasing around an active 2 year old toddler.
As soon as I reached 150 lbs, it was about the same time we planned to get pregnant for our second child already. I was sick for most of my 2nd pregnancy and only gained a total of 20 lbs. The cool thing about that is that I’ve already lost that 20 after 2 weeks of giving birth.
I’m now encouraged to lose some more weight. Maybe another 20- 30 lbs. I was so excited to fit back to a medium for tops and size 8 for pants. Actually, losing the 20-30 lbs would be awesome, but my ultimate gal is to finally be a small…again.
I still have my chocolate cravings which I cant help, but I’m gonna try to be more active. I’ll be dusting the elliptical and finally get some mileage on it again. =)
